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but....it doesn't matter to you anyways.

Brick by Brick by Brick

There comes a moment in time, when you realize
everything you've been wishing for and hoping for might not be what you need.
A thousand broken promises.
A million words said.
All the same. Repeat.
The same vicious cycle of love and disaster.
One thing said, another thing done.

I promise this time is different.
I want this to work.
Dishonesty. Heartbreak. Lies. Repeat.

Always seems like one person wants it more than the other.
Your words are the only thing can do damage to me.
The only thing that can destroy me.
And you use them so well.

It's completely insane how the ONE person you
would do anything for, can treat you this way.
ESPECIALLY when you've done nothing wrong.
Endless. You can hurt me and I accept it and move on.
I know it's just going to happen again and again.
In the back of my head, deep inside me, I hope things will change.

I'm slowly building a wall. With every dishonest moment, a brick.
Every misleading glance or touch, a brick. Every broken promise, a brick.
I'd do anything in this world to make you see how I feel but,
in the end, it's the same.
I've let you down because apparently my feelings for you were
never clear. You still haven't been able to grasp the fact of how
much I care.
How if you were the last person I saw before I died, I'd be complete.
How no one else matters.
How your eyes are all I see when I close mine.
My every waking moment is centered around you.
But I don't think you know that..or even care.

It's partially my fault, I'll admit. I know I don't say how I feel.
I just wish you could see it. When you look into my eyes.
I'm in love with you.
One of these days I'll be able to tell you, and you'll believe me.
I can't wait for that day.

Time is of the Essence.

I don't know what's worse...
Losing you completely the first time and not knowing it was going to happen...
or
Knowing the exact time when you're going to walk out of my life again.

Time Machine.

Those pictures....look nothing like you.
It's like you've went back in time.
You look so happy.

Maybe it's for the best.
You wouldn't have known me then.

Easy Come, Easy Go.

It's getting harder to remember....
And easier to forget.

Once In a Lifetime, We Get Another Chance...

Can this really be happening again?
Out of everyone...

Maybe you're the light at the end of this long tunnel.

The Pain Is the Only Reminder That You were Real.

You say:
"I love you baby. You're mine. I'm yours."
It melts me but leaves me cold at the same time.
I know when you leave that the feelings going away.
I wish it didn't hurt like this.
I want it to be as easy for me as it is for you.
I wish I could block it out.
But I can't help it. Your touch and your words are SO believable when I'm with you.
It would almost be easier if you didn't say it at all.
But everytime I'm with you I pray it will change. Pray things will be different.
But they won't be. I know this.
I've cried too many tears for you.

The second you walk out the door...I'm alone once again. Cold. Left with my thoughts and heartache. The tears flow down my cheeks. Dear God, Help Me Be Strong.

Can anyone out there make me feel alive again?

please.

It Will Be a Bitter Pill To Her..

they're taking away my imagination...

I want it back.

You Want To Know What I'm Thinking?

I'll tell you what it is...
I wonder how I got so lucky. What did I do to deserve this?
I look into your eyes and see how much you love me.
When I think about my future, you're all that I see.
Please don't take me lightly.
Please don't question what I say because
When I think of you, it makes me happy and makes my day.

Maybe I don't talk much and maybe you don't like it that way.
But, honestly and truthfully it's because you take my breath away.
Without you I'd be so lost, I wouldn't know what to do.
Please! Please! Believe me when I say I love you.
I mean every word. I wouldn't say it if it wasn't true.
Please! Please! Don't let me lose you.

I wouldn't try so hard to keep you if this wasn't right.
I know you want it too but why do we ALWAYS fight?
The best things are worth fighting for.
Maybe I should take my own advice and maybe I should let you go
and live your life.
What am I saying? I can't give up.
You're all that I live for...I'm not losing hope.

Maybe these words mean nothing and maybe what you say is true.
Maybe if I let you in my head you'd be able to get through.
But I promise you this and maybe you'll see...
The only things in my head are thoughts of you and me.

Used.

You both use me.
You take advantage of the fact that I'll do anything you ask.

I hate it more than anything.

No One Can Get Inside My Head

It's the Honest Truth

Too Different

My Life and Your Life Are Too Different For Us to Ever Work.
i'm realizing that more and more every day...

Wish

I'm Sorry. I Wish I Could Have Changed. For You.

The Little Things

It's the little things that I love the most.
The simple things that make me weak.
Your Smile Makes Me Smile.
Your Laugh Is Contagious.
The Way You Kiss Is Breath Taking.
Your Touch Can Stop Me In My Tracks.
The Way Your Eyes Stare Into Mine, Captivates Me.

Ask Me Again Why I Love You.

Think Different

"Here’s to the crazy ones. The misfits. The rebels. The troublemakers. The round pegs in the square holes. The ones who see things differently. They’re not fond of rules. And they have no respect for the status quo. You can praise them, disagree with them, quote them, disbelieve them, glorify or vilify them. About the only thing you can’t do is ignore them. Because they change things. They invent. They imagine. They heal. They explore. They create. They inspire. They push the human race forward. Maybe they have to be crazy. How else can you stare at an empty canvas and see a work of art? Or sit in silence and hear a song that’s never been written? Or gaze at a red planet and see a laboratory on wheels? We make tools for these kinds of people. While some see them as the crazy ones, we see genius. Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who actually do." -Apple Think Different Campaign

Savior

I Was Falling...
Sinking Deeper Into Darkness.
You Reached Out and Called My Name.
Saved Me. Perfect Timing.

Where Have You Been All My Life?
I Couldn't Ask For Anything Better.

Endless

Unsettling mind why do you keep me up?
Thoughts racing through, constantly flowing...

What Am I Doing? What's It Like? Who Am I?
Why Is This Happening? Why Do I Love You?
Where Are You? Have I Changed? How Much Longer?
Why Does It Bother Me So Much? Can I Move On? When?
Why Can't I Just Speak? Who Are You? Why Can't I Forget?
What am I Thinking? Why?

Questions..Go Away.

Fall of the Heartbreaker

Breaking Hearts and Causing Pain.
That's What I was Known For.
Until I Met You.

You Changed Me and Played Me.

Guess It's What I Get.

I Wish I Could Change

Great Minds Think Alike

My Mind. Your Mind.
We Are the Same.

Your Mind. My Mind.

I'm Glad You Understand.
Our Mind...
Completely Unstoppable

YOU

If there was one thing that I could take back...
If there was one thing I could change...
It would be YOU.
You're everywhere. I can't lose you.
Your words follow me. Your memories haunt me.
You're gone but you're still here.
You have invaded my life. You have taken a part of me.
Your controlling and manipulative nature destroyed me.
It destroyed my sense of judgment. You clouded my vision.
I couldn't lose you now even if I wanted to.
Our lives have become a entanglement so deep that it won't just go away.
Family, Friends, Emotions...it all has become involved in this web of hatred.
I'd give anything to make you stop.
I'd give anything to make you go away.
I'd give ANYTHING to make the memories vanish.
What am I saying? You're the best and I hate it.

Here Is the Deepest Secret Nobody Knows

I. Love. You.

Forget You

I Don't Want To Be With You.
I'm Glad We're Through.
I Don't Love You.
But WHY Do I Care So Much? It Bothers Me.
I Know Why...
It's Because You're Actually Happy and I Sit Here In Misery.

Ink! Ink! Ink!

"A tattoo is a true poetic creation, and is always more than meets the eye. As a tattoo is grounded on living skin, so its essence emotes a poignancy unique to the mortal human condition."

Oh Foolish One

Too Bad I'm Such A Fool. How Did I "Let Myself" Love You?

Guess You're Laughing Now.





"Foolery, sir, does walk about the orb like the sun, it shines everywhere"
-Shakespeare's Twelfth Night

What If...

I lie here thinking. My heart is the only sound pulsing through the silence.
With each beat comes a new thought:
What if?...
What if I hadn't met you?...
What if you hadn't looked at me that way?...
What if I hadn't given myself to you?..
Too many what if's. Too many words trying to make themselves known.
Each thought swells in my head. It's becoming too crowded. Help....I feel myself falling.
Catch me....
Why can't you see how I feel about you?
Why can't you see that every ounce of me is calling out to you?
Shouting. Screaming. Wanting.Take my hand! I'll show you everything WILL be ok.
Trust me. Please trust me.

You Give Me Something To Believe In

When There's Really Nothing Left.

You're All I Could Ever Want..

But There's Nothing I Can Do About It.
You're Out of Reach.

Sketchy

Puppet

Why do I let you control me?
Why do I let you have such a tight grasp on my mind?
The closer I feel like I'm getting to you the further you drift away. I feel your grip tighter and tighter around me, suffocating me, but I like it. I don't want it to go away. You can control me like no one else can. I don't understand it.

Why do you not care?
Why keep leading my heart down a path of lies?
My heart is fragile and is shattering. I won't be able to pick up the pieces. You don't care.Take back your lies, take back your actions, take back your words. I don't want them anymore. I'm breaking free.

Empty

Silent and Cold. So Alone...
The memories of things once happy and cheerful send shivers down my spine.
What have I done?
Who have I become?
This isn't me. This isn't what I want. My insides want to pour out the bad and bring back the good that once was. It's pointless. Things are done. I cannot escape the misery that I have entangled myself in. I'm an empty shell of a person. Going through the motions. I cannot say how I feel because there is no feeling left.
Stop asking me to. There's nothing to say.

What have I done to you? I've cut you down, I've torn you apart. Things will not, can not, ever be the same. I see the hurt in your eyes and all I want to do is say it'll be ok. But I can't because it won't ever be ok. I've messed up, I'll admit but there's nothing in the world that can change it.
What's done is done.